Her?

So I watched the movie Her. About a man who falls in love with an AI (named Samantha no less). I had an itch to write about it because it got me thinking. Did I find it touching / romantic, no – but I did find it thought provoking, yes. It made me curious about what constitutes a relationship. This question can apply to friends or romantic partners. For friends, is a relationship set on the foundation of memories built together, ease of chatting, or emotional vulnerability you can share with said partner? I have friends for different occasions as …

Hum Drum

I think I’m starting to set a streak of writing this year. I have been craving it lately. There is a bunch of other things I could / should be doing right now but I would rather spill my thoughts. I can feel myself slipping into a state of mild depression. It has been lingering for the past few weeks and I keep trying to snap out of it. Two of my warning signs are overeating and oversleeping and the traps have been getting me as of late. I feel as though I have a lot of my plate (key …

Start of the Year

I’ve had a tumultuous start to the year. My emotional spectrums have been all over the board. Not necessary following the scope of the situation, sometimes backwards emotions for the situation at hand. Last night I had a typical breakdown of “what is the meaning of life” or more so what do I want my definition of this meaning to look like for my life. I also simultaneously decided I need more space to myself. I feel like I have been pushing myself to be social, meet new people, and have a crew to hang with. I am so appreciative …

Written on a Plane

I’m in a pretty mentally stable spot. That never happens. Except for an unexplainable blip on Saturday night (not a cry for help more of a momentary let loose). I have healthy thoughts yet still experience the uppers I always used to chase. Instead of flip flopping from negative to get the positive I am on the scale of net 0 to the positive. I wasn’t aware that was a possibility. I am cognizant of when my thought patterns are starting to slide into dangerous territory and am able to course correct. Getting too invested in something or someone, obsessing …

Potential

Hey, it’s me. A grown lady who still thinks they can sip a large coffee early afternoon and still sleep at a decent time. Also a woman who thinks they can wear her work shoes yet again without socks and yet again get raging blisters from this repeated mistake that has occurred multiple times this month. To cope with this slip up I am now eating slightly expired smoked salmon (it doesn’t smell any fishier than normal and those dates are always overly cushioned right?). I guess tomorrow’s stomach condition will answer that question.  Today’s topic: potential. In a state …

Settling In

I went to Minnesota for the weekend to see my favs (aunt, uncle, and cousins + bonus mom and grandparents appearance). On the plane ride back, I found myself aching to be home. Yeah that is weird, California is my home now. What is wild to me is how quickly I’ve adapted to this “new normal” (the cringe COVID phrase of the decade). Usually there is an adjustment period when I feel lost and dazed, not sure who I am yet or what a routine is like. Here, everything comes so naturally. I feel a sense of a belonging, or …

I’m Back in California

So I had a chance to explore today meaning I officially feel like I have moved. The past week or so has been a blur of packages, rearranging items, and attempting to work simultaneously. Until my environment is to my liking it is quite a challenge to focus. It is crazy how go-go-go the past month has been. So much to do so little time – so little time that I have in fact been able to ignore my emotions. I had one slip up in Toquerville, Utah in which my period decided to make an appearance and I took …

Ocean Thoughts

I am sitting here on a dark beach – not a soul in sight, just how I like it. The air is humid which also happens to be how I like it. I had to take a brief pause in my writing to confirm that the moving lights I see in the haze above are helicopters and not an UFO coming to take me home. For now I am just going to assume I am safe to be on earth another day. It is funny that I am sitting here surrounded by crashing waves, a foggy sky above, bursts of …

Drive

I love to drive. Am I a good driver? The answer from my family is a resounding no (I disagree). I have always enjoyed the process of driving. Especially alone. Getting my drivers license was my first taste of independence and as a very independent person that is a memorable event indeed. For me, a drive is equally effective as meditation or therapy. I get that shower-esk mind wandering goodness. My favorite times to drive: early morning dawn before the world is awake, summer days with the windows down, blasting music when I am slightly sad, coastside, and firey sunsets …

Why Not?

Lately (as in this week) I have suddenly gotten a burst of energy, inspiration, zest you might say. I have felt a burst of inspiration, thinking that the vast world is open for my exploration. So many times in life we make excuses, okay maybe I can’t speak for you but for myself that is often the case. I waste so much time in limbo instead of just doing and failing. There is nobody in the world determining my destiny. I am not a puppet on a string. Sure, life is unexpected and it throws some crazy twists and turns …